Sometimes Life Gives You Too Many Lemons

Right now I feel like life gave me way too many lemons. 

I don't know what to do with the extra.

These past couple of weeks have been over whelming.  

Recently, my family made some big decisions that would impact my life greatly. I was really excited and so pumped for an epic life long change! Let the adventure begin! 

I was finally ready to start a new chapter somewhere else, and drop everything.... (except college and friends!).

But suddenly everything changed. When I say everything, I mean EVERYTHING.

Now, I am kinda in this purgatory state.

 I just don't know what to expect next. I feel like.... I just don't even know how to describe how I am feeling. I know one thing---I do not like this feeling. 

I feel lost, and on edge....

I need my friends 

Yes, i know my friends are busy. But I need my friends to support me!

I don't even know who to turn to except to God. 

**now I'm getting teary eyed LOL! **

Literally, God is my Best friend! He will never stab me in the back, forget me, abandon me, lie to me, hurt me. He will always be by my side no matter what. 

Like guys, it is truly so beautiful to think that God is always there for me and beside me. He will listen to me and let me cry my guts out to Him. He will comfort me in times of difficulty. He will encourage me, and He will love me. 

Is that cool or what? 

God has blessed me in so many ways. This is just another trial I must go through. He has strengthened me incredibly! There have been many times these past couple of weeks where I was ready to put everything down and just give up. I was so stressed out, and had no idea what to do or what life and God had planned for me. I felt so desperate for answers. 

I decided to LET IT GO.

Thats right folks! I am not going to let this bring me down. God will see me rise above this trial. Why should I waste another moment worrying about the future?! SERIOUSLY!

Life Update and Reflection

SO, Just received my ACT score today. Bumped it up one point! Even one point can make a difference! So happy God helped me accomplish such a feat.

Testing, in regards to the ACT test, has never been in my favor. Now school testing--- when I actually know exactly what material will be on a test and given exactly what i need to study---  that is something I have gradually become much better at doing.

Anyways, i also sent out my scores to colleges. PRAYERS MUCH APPRECIATED!

As of late, I've been "job searching". So far I have found a couple new places to work at this summer. Really looking for Gods wisdom in all this decision making. It is hard work. Sometimes I wish I had one of those magic eight balls that made decisions for me. Every time I have a difficult decision to make I could be given a quick answer with my handy dandy eight ball on the spot!

...Nice, right?

Sadly, thats not exactly how God made life out to be! Life isn't a cheap game of quick answers to life's hardest decisions. In fact, he made life to be so much more than that.

Life's about living by FAITH, and HOPE.... believing in that which you cannot visibly see! 

As a Christian, I keep that very close to my heart. Though I cannot visibly see God or witness the many amazing miracles listed in the Bible, I full-heartedly believe every word of the Bible. I believe God exists and that He sent His one and only son to die for ME, a sinner! And that if I believe all that to be true and live a life that strives to reflect that of Jesus, then I will not perish, but have eternal life in Heaven.

That takes a lot of hope and faith folks.

Well... I'm very tired. Wish I could write more, but I need Sleep! Its almost 12:30 AM!

Sleep peacefully my beautiful friends! Hope you all had a lovely winter break and are ready to kick start it back into school!

GOODNIGHT!